Here in the land of the skinny minnie I have been put on hormones by my OBGYN to get my body to behave in a normal female way. The first time she only put me on one brand, just trying to give my factory a swift kick in the behind and get... for lack of a better analogy, the lights turned back on. Well, that didn't work. So I went back and now, for the last almost 20 days I have been on 2 different hormones that are designed, to while working together, make my body think that my endocrine system is working properly and send me into regular monthly cycle....
THIS HAS TURNED ME INTO A PSYCHOPATH!
I have 2 emotions right now, neither of which I am all that comfortable with... raging bitch, or emotional basketcase. Either way I think Dave wants to move to another country right now. There is absolutely NOTHING he can say or do that doesn't either make me cry or scream. Poor Dave doesn't know what to do because, everything seems to set me off and I really don't know what to do about it.
Now, as some of you know these hormones are also reeking major havoc on my FA program. I have (as of today) 6 days of abstinence (no flour or sugar, no snacking, weighing and measuring all of my food), because I went on a bender (for lack of a better term). I ate whatever (within the confines of "abstinent food") I wanted, whenever I wanted for almost 2 weeks. This is after trying (and succeeding) to quit smoking caused me to eat 3 lbs of cheese (Insert laughter here) back in February caused me to loose my 10 months of back to back abstinence. So I had 10 months, then I had about a month and a half, and now I have less than a week! GRR.
All of this drama is in the pursuit of having a family and it is a very noble cause for which we are both willing to get a little dirty, but seriously, I just want to go back to having one emotion, "whatever". My life was so much easier when my response to everything in life was, "whatever". (Dave is shaking his head)
I don't want life to be boring or mundane, but simple and easy would sure be nice. I will keep you posted on the TTC front. I will also make sure that these posts are clearly marked with such tell tale signs as TTC (trying to conceive), TMI (maybe too much information), TMFI (too much effing information).
