Insomnia should at least be more fun

I know why I can't sleep. I'm pretty sure that it is directly correlated to my caffeine intake and my stress level. The more caffeine I drink and the more stressed out I am, the less likely I am going to be able to go to sleep. and it's not like in the adds where they say "are you having trouble falling asleep and staying asleep?" I stay asleep just fine and then I am narcoleptic in the the mornings when I need to be awake and I cannot seen to keep my eyes open. So I drink some more caffeine.
I need to start actually trying some of the tools for the 12 step program, specifically meditation and journaling. I have heard many people who journal say that writing helps them get stuff out of their heads so they can stop thinking about it. I don't know about the whole meditation thing, it's just quiet time, but I guess it could work. Can't be any worse playing soduku until 4 in the morning, listening to Enya.
The major reason for my sleepless night you ask? It's the moving, or the anticipation of the move and all of the stuff that I have to do to get myself to that place. Selling off everything we own, so all we have to bring is what can fit into a Pod (couch, table, bed, dressers and nightstands). Hopefully enough people will be in the new years resolution mode and want my treadmill and Dave's eliptical (that was a brilliant idea, hidesite 20/20). I'd even move them down to California if you know of anyone that would like them. and then there is the job thing. This is what is REALLY keeping me awake. I turned down the only job that the company had for me because I am not going to commute down to Monterey everyday. Dave tried that when he moved to Portland and was commuting to The Dalles and it's just not worth it. I am really worried that I am just one more (middle of the road, nothing spectacular, hum drum, looks like someone I used to know, didn't we go to high school together, what makes you stand out, isn't there anything else) person in a sea of people looking to ____________ (relocate, change careers, follow their dreams, make more money, etc. ).
I don't think that I am anything special. I know you want to argue this point with me, and probably already have on more than one occasion, but with all of Landmark and all of my success with FA, both of which I would NEVER talk about in a resume or an interview, I really just think I am one of a multitude. Caucasian female #2,394,299,653, nice to met you. That's what is keeping me awake at night, that I may not be remarkable enough to find something worth doing, and I really will wind up at the Estee Lauder counter during the day and Starbucks at night, and all of my schooling and all of training will be for not.