Reviewing the Landmark Forum Day One

So, this weekend I am a participant in the Landmark Forum.  I originally completed the Landmark Forum in April 2004.  It is really awesome, as I have shared about 10 thousand times before but it is really interesting that even though I have already done it, I am really getting things out of it.   One thing that I got aware of is how I am with Dave.  I get really annoyed and frustrated when Dave wants to be all lovey-dovey and cuddly when we are going to bed.  Not every night, but many nights.  And I was saying to myself that I just wasn't as warm and fuzzy as he is and he need a lot of attention and that he is needy.  But in the Landmark Forum I saw that what I was doing what intentionally punishing him for things that are not working outside of our bed.  Specifically I was dominating him because the house is a mess, the garage is full of boxes and the laundry isn't done.  And making him wrong for it not getting done. 

This is crazy!  It's like me saying, Honey I love you when the laundry and dishes are done and we are all moved in, but until then... tough.  That's madness.  And I see that the impact on our relationship is that we are not related, repressed emotions, and frustration.  I am creating the possibility for myself and my life of being intention and tender.  Inside of this new possibility I came straight home after getting out of the Landmark Forum.  Did the dishes, made our meals for tomorrow, changed the sheets on our bed and was in bed by midnight (less than 2 hours after I got home).   I did it all with a smile on my face and a song on my lips!  I brought intentionality home with me, not like there was anything to fix or change about my house, just that I wanted to care for myself and my husband and I just stood for having intention being present.  

I also called James, just to tell him how much I love him and how I want us to be closer! Joy!

This stuff is awesome!